I truly believe that every person deserves the time to pull away and be alone, and reflect on their own lives... Literally that is where I am at in this stage of my life, I have decided for 2 weeks I will not talk on the phone, watch very little t.v. I would give myself an hour daily that is enough for me I am not a big t.v. fan... when I am not working I will just be alone, do some soul searching...
I have found this journey to be a blessing to my heart, I decided not to get any advice from friends during this time... I will rely on my inner wisdom that has been silent for way to long... Would you belive that I feel great God is giving me clarity on issues that have bound me for a long time, I would tell everyone to take the time out for you!!!!!!
do whatever it is to make the trip back home to you!!!! make the investment back into your life, your heart, your mind, your soul....
During the process I cried boy have I cried but I had to be real with me, I did things that I knew that Alfie needed to do to get herself back in the move of her life, I had to forgive myself for placing people above me, that was killing my life, I had to stop making excuses for people, and realize that the hard pill for me to swallow was "it is what it is" that statement is a hard truth little in words but heavy to the mind!!!!
When I had all the I could take I felt the need to retreat to pull back, let go, I didn't call anyone and give a explaintion, I turned the ringer off, and i didn't offer any alerts before I did my trip back to me, and I didn't offer any apologizies when it was over..
During my exclusion from the world, I got a pen an notebook, and I began to name the people that were in my life at the current time.... what were they doing for me, people do only one of two things deposit into your life, or take from your life... that is it, it will never be a grey area regarding that......
I began to look my realtionships that Iwas in, I began again for the last time, to explain my feelings to certain individuals letting them know if were to continue our relationships certain things will have to change... I have to be real these people made no change, so therefor I must change no more talking!!!!! Now it is time for Alfie to take action for her life, I did permanent changes to let these people know that Iam not playing....
You can never change anyone only you can change, and you have the right to change your mind... never keep anyone in your life who will not respect the wishes that you have for your life, love will never take one for granted!!!!!!
Yes I learned the gift of goodbye, and the power of letting go, embrace it and let God open the door for you becuase he has so much more for your life... Be strong enough to let go, whatever the mess you are hanging on to, if you trust your heart and let go, you will find the more waiting for you!!! love you take some quiet time out for you, be good to you, honor you, cherish you, adore you, have people in your life that feels good about you, have people in your life that when your name in mentioned around them they get happy, is reality to have people in youir life that adores you Hey I am one!!!!!
love lady DEE
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